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I noticed after I posted my last blog, and as I was reading it again, that I said I havn't worked outside the school in over 10 years, I am sure you all figured out that was supposed to say, outside the HOME in over 1o years. This is what happens when I get tired. Goodnight all.

My once in every two months post.

Hey Everybody, just stopping in to say hi. The new exciting thing going on in my life, is that I actually have a job. Ok that is exaggerating a bit. I am a substitute for para's at the Grandview Elementry School where my kids go to school. TO me this is a big deal, because I havn't worked outside the school in over 10 years. I just figured that with all the kids in school I should do something. I am not big on working full time, never really have, and I still want to be there when the kids get out of school, so this is perfect for me. I Got training Last Wednesday on November 4, and my first day was Thursday November 5. I have already worked two times this week too. I have to admit that first day was TOUGH. I came home so tired, and sore, and I didn't feel like I did anything, but it wiped me out.

I have done better this week. I think that was mostly because I got closer to 6 or 7 hours of sleep instead of 4, but Hey that might not have anything to do with it lol. Its been fun, because I have been able to see my kids throughout the day which has been exciting. I was told I never would a sub in my kids classrooms but the school is so small that we pass each other in the halls all the time. Plus Adalene did the Announcements this past week, and they have a radio station in the school, so the announcements are over the tv so I got to see her on there. The first time was such a shock because I didn't know about, it so I looked up to watch the Announcements and there was my beautiful Daughter. I was also Outside Recess Duty, and of course each of them has recess so I got ot spend some time there with them too. I have really enjoyed it, and I hope to do more of it. It gets me out of the house, and out of my comfort zone.

I have also noticed that I am not as obsessed about a certain topic in my life that has been the front burner story of my life for the last three years. I have not stressed about it as much, and it is not a constant thought. I am not saying I do not still want another baby, because that will never go away. I still pray everyday that I will be blessed with another baby in my life, BUT, when I am at school and not just at home in bed, not doing anything, I do have other thoughts, and I think that is good. So we will see where that leads, and if and when I will ever be able to have a baby.

Well this seems to be just a blog of random thoughts, but since I don't think many people read it anyways, I guess it is ok. Plus just because I am going to school everyday, doesn't mean I am GOING to school, so I can have run on sentences lol.